Hmm. Where to start? Since dah lama tak update this blog, and I don't even know how and where to start. But yet, I've got an idea.
Sincerely, I'm updating this post at 11:56 pm on 3rd December 2015 in Universiti Pertahanan Nasional Malaysia (UPNM). Yes. It is where I belong right now. Further my study here in Bachelor of Social Science ( Language and Cross Cultural Communication). And I am also participating in Reserved Officer Training Unit or known as ROTU. Palapes lah. Palapes. Hmm. Since I've been furthered my study here, so i need to participate in this Ko-K. Wajib kayy. WAJIB ! I don't like it either but I need to. Benefits? I can be commisioned as Young Officer when I finished my 3 years study here and ya orang cakap, "Seronoknya kau keluar-keluar je nanti ada pangkat terus. Leftenan Muda lagi tu..." bla bla bla. And they do not know how I struggled toughly to finish this and get that pangkat. I have another 1 and half years to finish of my degree and also my training as Palapes. Alhamdulillah I've gone through this 1 and hakf year here and a lil bit more to finish of all this kind of dugaan in hidup. Tu je kot nak cerita bout my student's life. Nothing else to be tell for.
Hmm. Let move on to my whole life or my personal life. Where do I need to start? Hmm. Alhamdulillah my family dalam keadaan baik baik sahaja.
My relationship? Do I need to talk abt it? Yaa lets me share some so that I can lessen my happy sad moment or memories in my life. I've just break off with my ex on 31st August 2015 haritu. About 3 months ago I guess. Break sbb apa? Ya. As usual. Dah nama pun lelaki kann? Nak kata takde jodoh, takdelah bertahan sampai 5 years en but ya maybe mmg takdak jodoh as people yg berkahwin pun boleh bercerai. Ini kan pulak aku yang just bercinta ? Not impossible. Manusia mana je yang taknak end up kan a relay with a marriage aite? But ya, aku frust meninggeng tertonggeng juga for a few hours. A FEW HOURS? whoops. Sekejap je en? Hmm. Bukan nak kata apa. Takdak guna nak frust terlangkup lelama sbb nampak sangat yang pasangan kita tu mmg dah lama nak tinggai kita as he/she tak kisah langsung dah pasal kita even kita frust lagu mana pun.
As for example, in my situation, aku kenal and bercinta dengan dia dah 5 tahun. Last last, dia kantoi sendiri dengan aku yang dia ada perempuan lain and yes siapa lah tak rasa macam nak tikam orang en. Gila kau , 5 tahun kot. Not a short period of time kot. Hmm. But ya again, mungkin bukan jodoh aku dengan dia. Mungkin dengan orang yang lebih beriman, baik, mulia, handsome, KAYA, SETIA dari dia. Aite? No no. We as a new generation of a woman cannot simply show yang kita ni lemah sangat sampai nak bunuh diri bila dapat tahu kekasih kita curang. Let him be. Kalau dia rasa dia buat pilihan yang betul, let he carry on with his decision. If not, dia akan cari kita balik. Just same as what he does to me.Penuhi hasrat dia. DIa nak kita lepaskan dia? YES KITA LEPASKANLAH DIA . BIAR DIA BAHAGIA DENGAN PILIHANNYA DAN MOGA DIA BAHAGIA HENDAKNYA :)
Aku dah boleh move on dah but yes aku mengaku ada juga sikit rasa rindu and tetiba sebak tak tentu pasal kan. Nak layan perasaan boleh but not always and not for too long. Biasa biasa dah lah. Hahaha. Let show to them yang kita okay je bila dah break up. Chill sudah. Ramai lagi yang dekat luar sana yang tengah tunggu kamu semua, si gadis bidadari cantik menawan :) Kumbang bukan seekor kan? Terlepas seekor kumbang yang mengeluarkan bau busuk, kita move on, cari kumbang yang mengeluarkan bau yang wangi pulak ;)
Last but not least, the only thing that I want to say is, BE HAPPY WITH WHAT YOU HAVE RIGHT NOW, LOVE WHAT YOU HAVE RIGHT NOW, SPEND QUALITY TIME WITH WHO ARE WITH YOU RIGHT NOW AND REMEMBER ALL THE PEOPLE WHO ALWAYS WITH YOU NO MATTER WHAT HAPPEN IN YOUR ENTIRE LIFE. LOVE YOUR FAMILY FIRST, THEN LOVE YOURSELF, LOVE YOUR FRIENDS AND LASTLY PUT A LITTLE PERCENTAGE OF LOVE TO YOUR PARTNER :)
